Friday, November 16, 2007
talk about being upset,i feel so tired,continuos 3 days i cried, no wonder.came back from a wake,got pissed cause i couldnt go YJC.( pisses me off )only make my cry, mentally exhausting..don't let it rain/ dont let it shine/don't make a rainbow come out.i dont want to rmb you.everything connects with you,you're not just part of my life & memory,but my heart.you forgot my bday, you forget everything.but you're extraordinary, just like me.that's what makes me forgive you.just the things we do,i'm content to rmb.i don't know how i can survive w/o your sms,just w/o anything.i want to cry, but i can't turn back.i said it myself,and i'm determined to make things change,by replacing you.God pls help me.what if it leads back the same way?i hope not, i cannot take it anw,i wanna die, and nv wake.because my chest always hrt when talking to you,though you give me those happy moments.anyone, everyone pls dont read this post.i'm upset and just want to be alone:/i know it will lead to endless nights of crying but i will do it,even if it takes me everything not to love you,make me do it. make me stop pls.it's only with kai wei i forget you,i dont know why, not totally.
you told me brb, and nv said back.
you replied only when i say i got to go.
pls dont break my heart like that.
i hate youu, i hate you.
when everything you do affects me.
fucking affects me:/
Y7:54 PM
