fly like you've never flown before,

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

yesterday night, was the worst night of my life.
i finally realise there is actually no one there for me.
i mean you may tell your promblems to your friends,
DESPERATELY.
but it turns out it's either they dont understand or care.
it's important to you,
i also know i cant force them to take the matter seriously.
im so tired of life, im telling myself to continue,
BUCK UP AUDREY
rings 2824675874933921 times in my brain, but i just collaspe,
halfway, out of fuel.

im so tired of life here,
of the people here,
dont tell me you guys understand, cause in reality you guys DONT.
you guys just dont. i want to leave.
i know my journey does not end here,
running away is the best ending.
things pile on my mind,
my to-do list seem to grow longer and longer,
but i dont have the energy to continue anymore,
not anymore.

i try climbing that barrier placed in front of me,
i try threading in beads,
but a slip of a hand, or a kick, everything falls.
back to square one.
i know i need the courage, patience,
but im too numb too tired to continue..
it's like a virus,
which attacks my body,
i get weaker & wealer,
but after countless attacks,
i build up strong resistance,
no matter how many times the virus attacks,
im numb, just numb,
willing to take the insult the hurt,
but i'll stay numb hoping,
oneday the virus will stop attacking,
but it won't.cause im not willing to take it away.
im not ready to let go, and admit defeat.

i'll do fine aone,
a girl with an emotional baggage on my shoulders.
someone with a heavy burden,baggage.

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